Can i please ask you for some help?

Seems to me you're just going through a rough spot in your life. You've probally had allot of emotions built up and let them out then and there because it became to much. The only thing I can think of for why you were calling for your father is that you either are close to him and needed confort or aren't close to him and really want to be. I'd go see a therapist for the scene you described is pretty bad. I hope your nightmares go away your in my prayers <3